Through the past couple of months, I have begun seeing changes in life. People I know are courting, or being courted, friends are engaged, my big brother is going to be married next spring, a friend just had her first child... Things are changing and I can't do a thing about it.
Amidst all of this change, how do I feel about my state of singleness that I find myself in, at the age of 19? I will be perfectly honest with y'all and say that I am:
Content.
It's the honest-to-goodness truth. I am about as content as content can be. I'm happy for those I know who are moving on into the next stages in life; but I do not feel envious, jealous, or wishful. I do not find myself wishing that "Mr. Right" would hurry up already and find me. I am quite content to keep my status of being single.
Is it wrong of me to really not care that I'm single? Is it wrong to say that I enjoy it? I've never been the sort of girl to have those romantic daydreams; my brain is too full of questions that are all vying to be answered. I've certainly never been able to understand the whole flirting thing. Why do it, when you could have a normal, interesting conversation in which both sides learn something new?
Perhaps I'm just a hopeless case; forever to remain the spinster that I have dubbed myself... Either way, whether I some day get married, or I remain single, I shall be content.
